What has happened, Has happened.

It's his freaking lost -.-"

Guys are assessssss =D.




Okay, nvm. Cut the condeming guys part.




Falling In Love, Breaking up.
Having your heart torn into pieces.

It's all part of growing up.
...I'm serious...

All we can do now is wonder...
Wonder if it was ever true love...
Wonder if it was ever meant to be...
Wonder if this was ever meant to happen...
Wonder if he still loves you...
Wonder if you still love him...

You'll keep wondering... And wondering... And wondering...
It'll be going on awhile... And they'll be nothing you can do to stop it...
Why?
Cause both of you have been so close...
And both of you loved each other so much...
And I'm guessing... This is the first relationship that you actually felt loved and all, right?
That feeling...
Just that feeling...

You would trade in anything to be back together with him...

But think about it...

If you were to be together with him again...
It's like force...
Both of you won't be happy...

Everything that happens...
Do happen for a reason...

Just sad that sometimes we don't know what the reason is...
For now...
But maybe later. =}


I'm sorry that you're feeling what you are right now.
But I'm telling you that it will make you stronger...
You can't help but think of him.

THIS is where Ray and I come in~! =D.

Friends come into your life to light it up!
Some of them might bring you down...
Screw those.

But know that We WILL BE HERE if anything should happen.
We are here to distract you from thinking.
We are here to try to cheer you up...
Even if it includes running naked
{I'm talking bout Ray, not me. I ada maruah =D}
But I know May not so evil, yea? =D.




Whatever happens. Good or bad.
We'll be here.
That's a promise.

-hugz-

Thx So Much For All The Support, My Friends =}



Thx KhiN XiaN~!

Thx XuaN-XiaN!~

Thx ToMaTo~!

Thx dHaMa!~

Thx May~!

Thx JeReMy!~




It really helped. =}.



I love you people =D.

If you keep thinking bout yourself.
You'll suffer more.

Example:

If you're in depression or whatever crap.
Don't keep thinking how bad you are in and all that crap.

Help other people who are worse than you.=}
When you help. You will realize, you feel much better after doing so. =}

Trust me on this.

So continue helping out.

If you keep thinking bout yourself....
You're going nowhere, My friend =}

I didn't plan to post this, but... I decided to =}.



Have you ever walked into a room... And had that feeling... Afraid of what you were going to see... And what you weren't?

Well, I had that feeling and it felt... Scary.

See, recently My Grandpa, Mother's side, met up with an accident.
A vehicle{still don't know whether it's a lorry or a car or motorcycle} hit my grandpa and ran off.

Actually, we don't really know if it's really a hit and run situation...
Cause we still don't know who sent my Grandpa to the hospital.



-Monday, 11 December 2006, 1700-

When I heard the news, I froze.
I was in shock.
My Mom said that she would be going down to Ipoh Tonight.{That night itself}
I said, "I'll go too."
But my Mom was like, "But don't you have something on tomorrow?"
"It's okay Mom, they'll understand. He's my Grandpa."
"=}"

Therefore, I went to get ready.
While I got ready, I remembered, I need to tell Khin Xian and Xuan-Xian that I couldn't make it tomorrow.
I called Khin Xian and told him I couldn't make it and what happened.
He voice dropped when I told him.
"Owh."
"Yea, I know..."
"Beng, Are you okay?"
"Yea...I'm fine. Don't worry. Tomorrow you guys go and have fun k? Tell Xx for me too, please. And tell her I'm real sorry."
"Don't worry bout that. I will"

My voice at that point of time...Was like those shivery voices when you start crying, you know?
So I went up and said, I must continue packing.
But tears fell...

I cried awhile, and then told myself that I must be strong.
And so, I continued packing.

When I came out from the bathroom, my sister asked me...
Are you following Mom to Ipoh?{Ya}
How many nights are you going to be staying over for?{Don't know}
And so she thought about it and she decided to follow to.
I Smiled.

After that, I went into my Mom's room and asked her if she has told My Dad and Bro.
She replied, "Not yet, No Time. Help me tell them, please,"
So, I smsed My Bro and Dad.
I told them in the sms about what had happened and that I would be following My Mom down.

My Bro replied, "I'll go too."
My Dad Called.
"What's KungKung{mother's side} doing in Ipoh!?"
"Mom's side... Not YeaYea{father's side}."
Oh, Okay... But what happenend!?
I'm not sure, I'll hand you over to Mom.

After that, I took all my stuff downstairs and went to eat.
After I was done eating, I sat in the living room and waited for My Bro to come back and for everyone else to get ready.

-Beep Beep-
I checked my phone.
-Unknown Number-

"Hey lil sis, I know now isn't the best time but I want you to know that Xuan and I will always be there for you and we love you. Not just as friends but we love you like family too. We love you, ok."

I knew it was Khin Xian. Who else could be so nice. =}...
Oh, he and Xuan were the only people who knew. So... haha.

Anyways, it was really sweet, Khin Xian. =}.
I love you too.

I love you too, Xuan. =}.



Nothing really happened on the way there.



-When we reached General Hospital, Ipoh, 2115-

We went to find out what ward My Grandpa was in.
3A.
So, we went to the security side and they said the doctor is treating him and that we could only visit him at 10 o'clock.

My Mom wanted to see My grandma cause she was so afraid. No one was there. Except her.

So we asked the security people to ask her to come down.

So, she came down from upstairs{we couldn't go up} and she told us what happened.
"He went out to buy breakfast for us. Normally he would be back in half an hour or so... But this time he took so long. So, I got worried and went out to look for him. When I was going out to the main road, I saw his motorcycle there. Just lying on the ground. But he wasn't there. So I went to all the hospitals to look for him. Window to window. When I came here, they said he wasn't here. But luckily I saw him there."
{He didn't register yet.}

When I saw my Grandma, You could see the Rings and Bags around and under her eyes. They were purple. Yea... I shed a few tears when I saw her.

So after that, we went back to the car and waited for time to pass.
My grandma went back upstairs and waited too.



-10 o'clock-

We walked back to the security side and they said only 2 people.
So, My Mom and Sis went first, Then My bro and I.
My Aunt didn't get to see him{she tumpang the ride}.
She said it okay. I'll see him tomorrow.

When I was walking towards the Ward to see him...
That feeling came to me...
I was afraid of what I was going to see... Or what I wasn't...

I saw my Grandpa... Laying there... Helplessly...
Tears flood my eyes... And eventually. I broke down...
Serious break down...
My Grandma and Mom they hugged me =}.
Then I stopped. I swept away all of it from my face =}

I followed my Grandma to her car{Yes, she drives okay~!} to get something while My Mom ... A few tears here and there but okay in the end.
My Bro followed too. My Grandma was talking to him bout how good he done and all.
So I was just walking behind them...

I started saying Sorry to my Grandpa.
"KungKung, I'm sorry that I didn't get to make you proud by getting straight As and all. I'm really really Sorry."
I continued saying that for awhile...

After that, waited for My Mom to come back down. Then we headed home.



-12 December 2006 General Hospital 1230-

We went to the Hospital to see My Grandpa again.
That feeling... Came to me again.
When I saw him... Tears filled my eyes...
I was trying hard not to cry...

So, we just visited him and went off knowing that he's in good hands.

While walking back... I didn't really have any mood to talk.
My Aunt was like, Are you okay?
I just broke down.
She continued... Don't be so sad lah... blablabla
Obviously I'll cry more right...

Anyways, that's basically it.

Then we came back and I decided to stay back in Ipoh cause My Aunt and My Mom are coming down to Ipoh this week. So I'll follow them back =}.
I have 2 Aunts if You're confused.

I can also spend time with my relative cause it's her birthday. =}

Speaking of birthdays... Xuan just spilled my Birthday suprise. xD. Khin Xian scoldedd her. Hahaha. =P


Thx guys for being there for me=}.





KungKung! Get Well Fast! =}

I would like to pay a tribute to 3 of my BE-AU-TI-FUL FRIENDS =D.

TAN KHIN XIAN!
He's like my bro =}.
A rrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyy good one =}.
He always remembers me when I don't.
He always messages me when I don't give a damn.
He's one of the few friends who didn't give up on me when I lost myself =}.
Xian, I love you =}.

Next...

NG XUAN-XIAN!!!
This girl gives me chocolate.
So I get high.
Evil, ain't she?
She's actually really nice.
{I'm shocked I said that too.}
HAHAHA.
Xuan... Is a great friend =}.
She's RARE as in RARE.
I LOVE HER =D.

FINALLY...

TOMATO a.k.a CELINE YAP KAH MAY~
She's like She's like...  UN DESCRIBE-A-BLE =D.
She's always there for me and knows when I'm down. =}
She's like my sistaaaaaa =}
MY TOMATO =D.
I loveeeeeeee you =D.


If you notice, it's eldest to youngest. So no complaints =D.
Thank you guy. And girls =D.

Beng loves youuuuu and youuuuu and youuuu!